11 Weeks Have Felt Like an Eternity...

but next week is finals week and i'll be done with my first quarter at Ai! i get a few weeks of summer vacation before summer quarter begins. i need to take advantage! i cant wait!

Where Has The Time Gone?

sometimes it feels like only yesterday we were breaking up. and now we are making up and pretending it hasnt happened. i am a bit to good and hiding and pushing away my feelings, as hard as i might try to find flaws in people...i dont know why yours are always forgiven. all that we have been through and have put each other through is a lot different from the others. im just taking things day by day; riding this roller coaster out. i dont know where things might go, and i dont know how i truly feel about that.

Say Something

or better yet, stop saying something. 

i dont understand why people put their business out there for the world to see, and then they act surprised when people ask or put in their two cents about the situation. attention dumb ass: by putting your  situation as your status updates you are letting people into your problems. regardless if you dont use names it is pretty obvious. so stop 'smh' and calling out people on status'.

thanks.

Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

"is this a lasting treasure? or just a moments pleasure?"

are all these feelings coming out of the woodwork because things arent going great for you? i dont doubt the feelings you have for me, and i cant hide the feelings i have for you. i just dont know if this is great timing. or even if it should even happen. i dont want to mess up the great thing you have going on; but regardless of what does end up happening, i know our friendship will remain the same. i value your friendship more than you can even begin to imagine.

If I Had No More Time...

so many different thoughts racing through my head. maybe its the three cups of coffee in my system, the lack of sleep, or maybe the warm feelings i have. i dont know what to think or feel. happy? guilty? but im mosdef excited. hahah.

You Be Illin'

answer me this, why do people chose to sugarcoat or "baby" their friends? wouldnt you want your friend to be honest and upfront with you? i dont understand people who baby their friends. if you were my friend i would want you to tell me when i was wrong, acting like a jerk, or when i am mean. i wouldnt think anything of it, if its coming from a friend. thats what friends are supposed to do, right? or do i have the wrong concept of being a friend? 

Soul Flower, Take Me Flying With You

"cuz i want you to be happy even if its not with me"

this type of reply was never intended or wanted. it shouldnt be coming from of you. you are with someone else. and even though you might look happy, i dont want to see you unhappy. sometimes it feels like you do things to keep yourself temporarily happy. shouldnt you want to be happy for more than a couple of hours, days, and weeks?