recently i have been thinking about a certain person, nothing is going to happen though. it could have happened a long time ago, but i let that one slip. he got away, went away and isn't coming back. he gave me a lot of signals that i chose to ignore. i wasnt ready at the time, i dont think i would be ready for him now. he is unlike anyone else i have ever dated. he is different from all my other friends as well. he pushes me and wants me to do better. he encourages me to do my best. i dont see or speak to him as often as i would like to, but i know he is still there if i need him. in actuality, im glad that he is a friend and nothing more. i dont think i could have been anything more to him.
